All alone

I am alone again in this cruel world,
away from joy, away from happiness,
why don't you listen to me, my dear Lord.
I always wanted to fly,
to see the world, to feel the sky.
But never wanted such a tiff in heart,
what i was looking forward to was a bright new start.
But never thought things will go wrong,
never knew happiness will not last long.
why this happen to me time over and again,
my dear Lord, tell me where i fail.
am i really such a bad child of yours,
why its me who always lose.
am i really so bad, or its just that destiny playing a game?
help Lord, or else i will lose my identity or forget who i m?